Priorities.

Prioritizing has never really been my forte.  With that said, my stress level is always high up on the scale and I'm only in my mid-twenties.  Talk about being an adult.  Anyway, you might be wondering why I'm on this topic and my main purpose is to share my thoughts with anyone who reads this.  The past couple of years have been an emotional roller coaster ride for me.  I'm nowhere close to being an emotional wreck, but I must say I'm still clueless when it comes to choosing a career path.  My passion lies between travelling and writing (although I've never really had anything published before).

"Hungover"

Oh Happy Days!

Gone are the days when I had the privilege of sleeping at dawn and waking up in the afternoon.  Life as an adult is not as promising as it seemed to me as a student.  Well, what did I know then?  I haven't experienced having to earn for a living at that time.  And now, there are times when I wish I could go back to being a student who knew nothing of budgeting salaries and saving up as much as one can.  Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of perks that comes with being an adult but for once I wish I knew what to do with my life and it's not as easy as deciding what movie to watch or which restaurant to book for a dinner date.  It's more than that because you'll have to think way beyond and actually see where you want to be in the next decade or so.

Welcome to my life!

A part of me is fading literally day by day.  I do not know whether I'll get through this stage in life.  I want to continue fighting this battle but what if it wouldn't be worth it in the end?  Should I just quit?  The person inside my head keeps telling me that quitters never prosper, but isn't the heart just as important as any part of our bodies anyway?  Who should I listen to?  I've been feeling this way ever since I started working there and it's been four months and nothing has changed.  So many questions and no clear answers.  Everyday I break down and cry just because I can't hold the emotions in my chest any longer.  No one said that life was going to be this easy and I was warned but maybe I wasn't ready... It caught me off guard as I stepped into the the harsh reality.  Don't get me wrong.  I'm neither bitter nor emo, just being my random self with mixed emotions and is indecisive as to whether or not I should go on or not.  A lot of you may not understand what I'm talking about but I just had to get this off my chest.  Let's just say that I am not at all happy with what I'm doing right now.  Welcome to my life!